I know, SURPRISE…. I was pregnant.
Thursday I was 11 weeks by my calculations… which typically are a week less than ultrasounds show.
I was due for my first appointment next week. Bryan took Thursday night off work so I could rest. I am so SO very thankful as he was there when I started cramping and miscarried early Friday morning.
I had no idea just how physically painful a miscarriage would be. So… as surprised and overwhelming as it was to discover I was pregnant with Shand being only 5 months old, the anticipation was building and we were excited over all the new challenges and fun and chaos this new baby would bring.
The neat thing is how God has been preparing me. All of my quiet times in Scripture and books I have been reading lately, and a message or two I have listened to, have been pointing to and affirming my partnership with Christ and our relationship, and His sovereignty and me trusting and being willing to go anywhere, through anything holding His hand.
So I have been moving surrounded by His peace… the kids memory verse that Thad was singing on Thursday was burnt
on my brain for upcoming sleepless night… “Don’t be anxious about anything, BUT in everything… by prayer AND petition… WITH thanksgiving present your requests to God. THEN THEN… the PEACE of GOD, which transcends all understanding, will GUARD YOUR HEART AND YOUR MIND in Christ Jesus.”
Peace in Jesus… It seems to have been the theme of the year since the last Dunamis retreat.
Last night, tired and weary though I was, we decided to go to the Dunamis leadership meeting (which we are part of because I am leading worship again for the next retreat). It was incredible. One of the ladies is SUCH a spiritual / and physical mother figure… it is the role God seems to have for her in these places. So that was special… how God provides that when my mom is so far. And they prayed Scriptures and promises and words all over me… it was beautiful. I love LOVE the body of Christ. And I love God… His goodness and faithfullness.
We are back on-line after a broken computer left us internetless for a while… I have missed chatting and catching up with all of you. It will take me a while to get back around to visit with all of you. If there’s any big news I missed, let me know 🙂