Psalm 15: 1-2
“… Who shall dwell (permanently) on Your holy hill? He who… speaks and thinks the truth in his heart,”
Ah, my heart is pricked… the lies and accusations I speak in my heart… Lord purify not only my words but my thoughts and the intent of my heart.
Psalm 16: 8
“I have set the Lord continually before me;”
To keep my eyes on You… not on those around me.
To look to You for direction and conviction… not to those around me.
To look for Your favor… not to those around me.
To gain confidence from You and in You… not from and in those around me.
Psalm 17:8, 15
“Keep and guard me as the pupil (apple) of Your eye. hide me in the shadow of Your wings. ”
Though I can’t run and hide physically, I CAN run and hide spiritually… run and hide in You where You lavish me with love, comfort me, nurture me as I nurture little Shand.
“… I will continue beholding Your face in righteousness ( right standing with You; I shall be fully satisfied, when I awake (to find myself) beholding Your form (and having sweet communion with You)
That is a great place to stop and go to bed… I will read that again, and again… more importantly, I want to live that again. and again. morning after morning.
ok… I don’t know how… here is my conversation with Keenan this morning…
K: Mom, the roofer guy is smoking a smoker and he just has to stop!
Me: He is an adult and can make his own choices
K: I think we just need to take the smoker from him and crush it
M: No, Keenan, you need to respect adults, and you don’t tell him what to do.
K: But mom, if he smokes and the smoker and it gets into his lungs he could die!
M: Keenan we all make choices, and a choice our family has made is to not smoke. That is HIS choice.
K: Well, mom, its just a BAD choice. When he goes back home we’ll just have to send a letter to his wife.
OY! what do you do with that?!?!?!
“You will prepare and strengthen and direct their (the humble and oppressed) hearts…”
Is that a promise for me? Let it be… this is surely what I need. Desperately.
“… the upright shall behold His face…”
Psalm 12: 6a, 7a
“The words and promises of the Lord are pure words… You will keep them and preserve them, O Lord;”
Thank you, thank you, thank you…
Psalm 13: 3,6
“How long? Lighten the eyes of my faith to behold Your face in the pitch like darkness…
Psalm 14: 2 The Lord looked down from heaven upon the children of men to see if there were any who understood, dealt wisely, and sought after God, inquiring for and of Him and requiring Him (of vital necessity)
Oh, how I need You…
Psalm 7:1, 3, 7
“in You I take refuge and put my trust; save me from all those who pursue…O Lord my God, if I have done this, if there is wrong in my hands… Let the assembly of the peoples be gathered about YOU “ (emph mine)
From where does my sense of completion and purpose come? Who do I live to please? Can I take the criticism? When its right on, and when its not? Who is my defense? Who do I look to for affirmation?
Through all this STUFF going on, Lord, please PLEASE be glorified, in spite of us, may this little church see YOU. only YOU.
“You have crowned him with glory and honor”
Why do I attempt to get approval from man? All I do must be for God and Him alone. to be crowned with glory and honor by Father God… and one day to be at Your throne, and lay it at Your feet…
“And they who know Your name (who have experience and acquaintance with Your mercy) will lean on and confidently put their trust in You, for You, Lord, have not forsaken those who seek (inquire of and for) You (on the authority of God’s Word and the right of their necessity).
Well… there is where I am at… those who know Your name… who have experienced Your mercy… in experiencing Your mercy and love, I can only rightly want that for others…
“You, oh Lord, are a shield for me, my glory, and the lifter of my head”
You God, MY glory!!! You oh Father God, lift my head to gaze at You… Gazing at Your face there are no darts or spears … for You shield me, I am protected by You.
Psalm 4:3a, 4
“Commune with your own hearts upon your beds and be silent (sorry for the things you say in your hearts.)”
Oh the thoughts that I dwell on… thoughts of accusation, death and destruction… from the father of lies himself… God, may I take every thought captive and bring it to your throne so you can show me where it comes from and if it is honoring to You. My I think on things that are pure, worthy, delightful, constructive, lovely…
… in the morning I prepare for You and watch and wait (for you to speak to my heart) …
For You have, and You will… I prepare my heart . I don’t watch and wait in vain… I don’t go about my day wondering… I watch for it… I actively participate in this conversation with You… and You do… sometimes you whisper, sometimes you nudge, sometimes you convict… but speak You do.
“The Lord has heard my supplication; the Lord receives my prayer”
oy. Its been one long conversation today… and You hear all of my thoughts, even before I utter them. You know my pain. You understand my questions.
Javamama is pressing deeper into Him through praise and the Psalms… I am joining her in my own way… reading slowly through the Psalms, asking God to reveal Himself to me, waiting expectantly for His voice to speak to me, and give me a word for this day, this circumstance, this life.
His delight and desire are in the law of the Lord, and on His law he habitually meditates by day and by night.
God this is the answer to my question… How do I know You and love You more? Where do I find wisdom and peace? It is in the continuous meditation of Your Word… Your love letter to me. Lord, may my delight be in Your words and hearing Your voice.
“Ask of Me, and I will give the nations as Your inheritance…”
King of Kings, this life is not about me. My turmoil is but a blip in the scheme of things. There is a bigger plan… that of drawing all nations to yourself… I ask for the nations… for Australia, for Uganda, for Mexico, for Uzbekistan, for Brazil, for China, for America…
May Your Kingdom of mercy and justice come… show me Your heart.
IHOP gave me an idea… in their prayer room manuals they have instructions for worshiping with the Word of God… amongst other fabulous resources… and I had never thought of using this in a corporate time of worship.
I have set my Bible up on the piano and sung, often with the worship team, and a few times with our home church, but not ever in our worship gathering.
But this has started me thinking, and brainstorming.
Next week I will choose some passage of Scripture to read… we will start I think with Lectio Divino, meditating on God’s Word.
We will have paper and pens for those who would like to journal.
I am going to set up paints on the table.
Katie will bring her guitar, and Tim and I can take turns on the piano, we can all sing, speak, pray, dance (maybe we’ll even grab the flags a girl in our church made… it might feel a little awkward in our living room, but then again, maybe not!! 🙂 )
We will worship… we’ll sing, play, write, paint, dance, pray… WORSHIP by speaking back God’s word and internalizing His thoughts towards us.. Yeah, can’t wait!