because I am being a dedicated mother, and making the hot cross buns I promised for tomorrow… even though I forgot they had to raise before going into the refrigerator, and I forgot that they had to be out of the fridge for an hour before I could punch them down so they could rise again adn then cook so we can eat them before we are out of the door at 8:15… what am I thinking????????????
Life goes on… the last Science program of the year tomorrow, followed by Passover Dinner… at, yes, MY house… its big and I love being a hostess, right? Today, not feeling the love, let me tell you. I am so so tired. My body hurts, my back hurts, my feet are swollen and… hurt.
I am overwhelmed with life and the list of things that MUST get done, not even counting the things that should get done, or would be nice to get done or the wish list…
I am a whiner and a grump.
And, Jesus Christ died to save ME!! Me, who has experienced so much of His grace, and love, and mercy, and blessings and miracles… and yet can still be so self-centered and judgemental and lazy and emotionallly psychotic.
And then He rose, to set me free to love Him, and to free me from life-sucking self.
Suddenly, I am not so grumpy anymore. It really comes down to where our thoughts are at times, doesn’t it? Whatever things are lovely, pure… think on these things… taking every thought captive… renewing my mind…