Monthly Archives: August 2006

fatih and prayer

Oddly enough, this questioning is not coming from a faith crisis, though I am sure some people deal with this during one.

How does prayer affect… anything, (besides our spirits / emotions)?  Does it really change anything?  How much does our faith  have to do with the outcome?  Do we pray to change us? or the world? Or to “make” or “allow” God to do something?  Is it just to remind ourselves of His Sovereignty?  And nothing else?  Has He given us any “power”? (we could pick that last one apart… lets not, you probably know what I mean)

Can we really ask anything in His name? ask, and we will receive? (Matthew 7: 7-8) Are all things possible to those who believe? (Mark 9:23) if we “believe that those things which he saith will come to pass, he shall have whatsoever he saith”… Really? (Mark 10:23) … so, “He who believes in Me (Jesus) the works that I do shall he do also… and even greater things” – no way!! (John 14:12) … whatever I bind on earth, will be bound in heaven, and whatever I loose on earth will be loosed in heaven… ? me? (Matthew16:19)

Where does His Sovereignty fit into the previous verses?  I am NOT questioning His Sovereignty (that church-ese word, that is so important and beautifully describes much of God)

Those are only a FEW of the many verses peppered through out the New Testament.  I want to pray with power, with purpose, with faith, and yet you know what holds me back?  “What if I am arrogant?  What if I am wrong?  What if it doesn't happen like I prayed for? ” (not a lot of faith in those questions)

Well, then… so what.  I have lost NOTHING… so God, I believe!!!  Help my unbelief!!  For I want to experience ALL you have for me, not the tiny bit I have allowed so far in my scewerred view of Your Sovereignty… somehow managing to skip and ignore the majority of the Gospels, half of the New Testament, and chaulking up the whole Old Testament to… well, you know the Old Testament!

God, You are SOVEREIGN… and in Your sovereignty You made those statements and promises to us.


last sunday's worship gathering

I really liked how we began last week.

we STARTED with communion…. talked about how one went into the temple, and their temple worship began with preparing and cleansing one self… it was great!!!

Its nice not to feel the pressure to start with a “wake up” song (it has to be celebratory and up beat in nature, so to speak) – also, since its an evening service, you don't have to wake up so many people !


regarding comments on "5 things"

so… I live in Alaska… so… we have moose and salmon in our freezer.  and yes, the salmon is excellent.  and moose… well, I just use it instead of ground beef in everything. 

the green card… I am Australian, and haven't decided whether to get citizenship… it would depend much on whether I could retain my Australian citizenship.

the extra underwear and pants or for Thaddeus, my 3 year old (who wakes up ALL through the night to pee, between 2 and 4 times, and yet, pees in his pants 4 times a day usually!!)

and a fun mamma?? I dont' know… but since it has rained NON-STOP for a month here, we were desperate for something outside the house to do, so we went down town…

and finally, yes, the parking ticket was a REAL ticket… as in… I forgot to go back and add parking to the parking metre… (sigh)… but not so bad as yours nsremom!!


His Divine Hour For Me

Aug. 25, 2006 – His Divine Hour for me

Following is this morning’s “Divine Hours“… I have had an awful morning, after a sleepless night, and the last few days of an incredibly short temper. Its scares me, quite frankly, and thismorning I could not forgive myself or let it go and was consumed with telling Satan’s lies to myself. How sweet to read these scriptures this morning and experience God’s forgiveness and peace and HOPE for a changed heart. Anger is always a symptom of something else… and that is what I will be seeking God for…


But I will call upon God,* and the LORD will deliver me. In the evening, in the morning, and at noonday, I will complain and lament,* and he will hear my voice. He will bring me safely back . . .* God, who is enthroned of old, will hear me. Psalm 55:17ff

O LORD, I call to you; my Rock, do not be deaf to my cry;* lest, if you do not hear me, I become like those who go down to the Pit. Psalm 28:1

I put my trust in your mercy;* my heart is joyful because of your saving help.

Psalm 13:5

Happy are they whose transgressions are forgiven,* and whose sin is put away! Happy are they to whom the LORD imputes no guilt,* and in whose spirit there is no guile! Psalm 32:1–2

In the due course John the Baptist appeared; he proclaimed this message in the
desert of
Judaea: ‘Repent, for the

kingdom of
Heaven
is close at hand.’

Matthew 3:1–2

Happy are they whose transgressions are forgiven,* and whose sin is put away! Happy are they to whom the LORD imputes no guilt,* and in whose spirit there is no guile! Psalm 32:1–2

There Is a Voice of Rebellion Deep in the Heart of the Wicked

There is a voice of rebellion deep in the heart of the wicked;* there is no fear of God before his eyes. He flatters himself in his own eyes* that his hateful sin will not be found out. The words of his mouth are wicked and deceitful,* he has left off acting wisely and doing good. He thinks up wickedness upon his bed and has set himself in no good way;* he does not abhor that which is evil. Psalm 36:1–4

Happy are they whose transgressions are forgiven,* and whose sin is put away! Happy are they to whom the LORD imputes no guilt,* and in whose spirit there is no guile! Psalm 32:1–2

O God, come to my assistance! O Lord, make haste to help me!

Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be your Name. May your kingdom come, and your will be done, on earth as in heaven. Give us today our daily bread. Forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sin against us. Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil; for yours are the kingdom and the power and the glory forever and ever. Amen.

The Prayer Appointed for the Week

Almighty God, who has given your only Son to be unto us both a sacrifice for sin and also an example of his godly life: Give me grace that I may always most thankfully receive that his inestimable benefit and also daily endeavor myself to follow the blessed steps of his most holy life; through the same your Son Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.†


The Concluding Prayer of the Church

Lord God, almighty and everlasting Father, you have brought me in safety to this new day: Preserve me with your mighty power, that I may not fall into sin, nor be overcome by adversity; and in all I do direct me to the fulfilling of your purpose; through Jesus Christ my Lord. Amen.†


5 things…

I will consider myself tagged, javamamma, as I want something vaguely interesting to blog!  Let me know if anyone from “my corner” does this so I can check you out 🙂

5 things in my freezer

 

          Moose

          Salmon

          Costco Italian ice

          Apple sauce (1 left from last year)

          Freezer jam

 

5 things in my closet

 

          Too many clothes

          Too many shoes

          Purses I hope to use at some point (instead of diaper bag)

          Too much dirty laundry

          Birthday / Christmas presents from family waiting for
allotted occasion.

 

5 things in my car

 

          Kite

          Picnic blankets

          Kid’s sunglasses

          Pens

          Water bottle

 

5 things in my purse

 

          Nail clippers

          Sun block

          Extra underwear and pants for Thaddeus

          Ticket stubs from last week’s jaunt to the city to play
tourist

          Parking ticket from last week’s jaunt to the city to play
tourist!!

 

5 things in my wallet

 

          Green card

          Sugar Shack coffee punch card

          Pics of the kids and hubby

          Too many receipts!!

          Opera ticket stub from Madame
Butterfly


His Divine Hour for me

Following is this morning's “Divine Hours“… I have had an awful morning, after a sleepless night, and the last few days of an incredibly short temper.  Its scares me, quite frankly, and thismorning I could not forgive myself or let it go and was consumed with telling Satan's lies to myself.  How sweet to read these scriptures this morning and experience God's forgiveness and peace and HOPE for a changed heart.  Anger is always a symptom of something else… and that is what I will be seeking God for…


But I will call upon God,* and the LORD will deliver me. In the evening, in the morning, and at noonday, I will complain and lament,* and he will hear my voice. He will bring me safely back . . .* God, who is enthroned of old, will hear me. Psalm 55:17ff

 

O LORD, I call to you; my Rock, do not be deaf to my cry;* lest, if you do not hear me, I become like those who go down to the Pit. Psalm 28:1

 

I put my trust in your mercy;* my heart is joyful because of your saving help.

Psalm 13:5

 

Happy are they whose transgressions are forgiven,* and whose sin is put away! Happy are they to whom the LORD imputes no guilt,* and in whose spirit there is no guile! Psalm 32:1–2

 

In the due course John the Baptist appeared; he proclaimed this message in the desert of Judaea: ‘Repent, for the kingdom of Heaven is close at hand.’

Matthew 3:1–2

 

Happy are they whose transgressions are forgiven,* and whose sin is put away! Happy are they to whom the LORD imputes no guilt,* and in whose spirit there is no guile! Psalm 32:1–2

 

There Is a Voice of Rebellion Deep in the Heart of the Wicked

There is a voice of rebellion deep in the heart of the wicked;* there is no fear of God before his eyes. He flatters himself in his own eyes* that his hateful sin will not be found out. The words of his mouth are wicked and deceitful,* he has left off acting wisely and doing good. He thinks up wickedness upon his bed and has set himself in no good way;* he does not abhor that which is evil. Psalm 36:1–4

 

Happy are they whose transgressions are forgiven,* and whose sin is put away! Happy are they to whom the LORD imputes no guilt,* and in whose spirit there is no guile! Psalm 32:1–2

 

O God, come to my assistance! O Lord, make haste to help me!

 

Our Father, who art in heaven, hallowed be your Name. May your kingdom come, and your will be done, on earth as in heaven. Give us today our daily bread. Forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sin against us. Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil; for yours are the kingdom and the power and the glory forever and ever. Amen.

 

The Prayer Appointed for the Week

Almighty God, who has given your only Son to be unto us both a sacrifice for sin and also an example of his godly life: Give me grace that I may always most thankfully receive that his inestimable benefit and also daily endeavor myself to follow the blessed steps of his most holy life; through the same your Son Jesus Christ our Lord, who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and for ever. Amen.†


The Concluding Prayer of the Church

Lord God, almighty and everlasting Father, you have brought me in safety to this new day: Preserve me with your mighty power, that I may not fall into sin, nor be overcome by adversity; and in all I do direct me to the fulfilling of your purpose; through Jesus Christ my Lord. Amen.†


death through a 6 yr old's eyes

reading the story of Moses up on the mountain, and God is hiding behind a cloud…

Thaddeus “why is God hiding?”

Mom “because God is so great and big and huge and bright and glorious, its more than our human eyes can handle.  We would be blind and fall over if we saw God.  But after we are in heaven we will have new eyes and new bodies…”

Keenan “Mom, will it hurt when God takes us apart?”

ok, so I thought I had a pretty decent answer!! LOL

its funny when you think they get it and don't… we have been talking about heaven for a long time, as Keenan's twin Hewett is there… (some of you might remember his prayer about God taking care of his brother so he doesn't fall out of heaven )

So tonight his prayer at meal time (I have no idea why he was actually thinking about it even) “Dear God, please help Hewett to not be sick and help him to get better” – I reminded him he was in heaven and there was no sickness in heaven.

Keenan”No mom… no no no mom… no listen mom… i want him to get better when he is here.  on ERF! (earth )”

Once again… Mom “Sweetie, he can't come back down, remember?  once you are there, ” 
Dad now “its a done deal”
“but mom when will I EVER see him and play with him?”

He is so cute…


the kids and big grandpa

So, its been a while, but we watched Big Grandpa on Wednesday.  Thaddeus asks me on our way to go pick him up from Peter's Creek “Are we gonna bring him home and “shix” (fix) him?” 🙂 no sweetie, Grandpa is not broken (not exactly anyway!)

They had a great time with him.  We played games after lunch, and then they watched his favorite Gaither video “A tribute to George Younce” – yeah, the kids turn to be patient!! they like it ok, but get tired of it after a while.  Not enough cartoon characters or kids to entertain them!

Keenan had quite the hilarious conversation with Big Grandpa about the large moles on his face / head… I wasn't sure whether to interrupt or not!! It wasn't exactly polite, but at the same time… so I just listened and let it go.  after deciding that no, they wouldn't cut them off, Keenan asks “what would happen if they did?” and Big Granpa says “I guess I'd be a lot smaller.”  what a hoot!! he hasn't lost his sense of humor…

Thad is struggling… crying and freaking out over everything.  and peeing his pants all day!!  of course, he doesn't at night… not a drop.  wakes up all through the night to go potty (which of course he can't quite do on his own yet!) its kind of like having a nursing infant again!! LOL – ok, not quite.

ok, kids want breakfast, so best go feed them


Worship Gathering August 13

I just deleted my blog!?!?! I don't know what I pressed, but it was with my left pinky… stinker!!  oh well, I will write it again.

I was going to tell about my Sunday, very exhausted, because of a no sleep late night… hmmm.  Maybe God had me delete it so that I wouldn't share the details.  OK.  So no details.  Apparently that must have been gossiping. 🙂

SO, I did what I am sure they DON'T recommend in the worshipleader books and magazines… “Good evening.  I do not want to be here! How are you? great.  Well, lets pray and ask God to bless our time together… lets be thirsty for and drink from His living water!!!  ”  And we proceeded to pray and sing and read psalms and songs that helped us lay our hearts bare before God…

By the time the set was over and the teaching finished, my heart was renewed by Him – YEAH GOD!! – it never fails I tell ya!! In fact, during the last 4 songs, in which we were supposed to go take communion whenever you wanted to, in a Spirit of joy and victory, I had to leave and go take communion!! (or receive communion 🙂 )  There was silence as the rest of the band shrugged, and joined me…/ and you know the coolest thing?

It wasn't this big akward pause… well, now we just wait… it was a pause of music… alive with electricity and joy and giggles – well a few giggles, mostly there were guys there! … and I came back and led the last song, with communion bread in my mouth :)… that was a little weird!! (I was asking God to not let me  choke or spit or drool )

OH the JOY that God pours out on us!!  the excitement and life that filled my tired “blah” body and spirit!!!

SO that was our Sunday!!  Its good to have some of our fishing friends back… they have been down fishing South in Kasilof.  Cell church went till 12am… yup… its good to be a body of believers for each other… sometimes when it gets late, its when the walls come down and things are shared after they are SURE , or at least willing to risk, that its safe.  I  PRAISE GOD that we felt safe Monday night.  that we didn't hurry anyone out.  that we God's grace and love filled our hearts, and we saw with God's eyes… God is GOOD!!!


Keenan's prayer for healing

My dad called… he has “fought” skin cancer as long as I can remember.  He has lost half of his nose, as the skin cancer and gotten into the bone… not bone cancer, but skin cancer in the bone.. not very common.

ANYWAY… so he called to say he had seen his surgeon and he wasn't pleased with my Dad's droopy eye, and come to find out there is a “blob” back there, that needs to be removed, which means he will lose his left eye.  He will have another MRI done asap so they know how far back it goes, and if its much further, he will have a neuro surgeon operate instead.

Talk about the myriads of scenarios and possibilities that go through your mind!  SO we are praying for healing.  2 yrs ago I would have prayed for the tumor to not be any worse than they have already seen.  Today, I pray for the tumor to be gone.  Because though God may not do what I ask,  because He has not shown me His heart in this area, I know He can and wants to!!  whether it is today, in a month, or in heaven.

So this is Keenan's prayer the other night.  ” Dear God, would you please help Puppa's eyes to get better so he doesn't have to have surgery.  And if he loses his eye, could you grow him another one, please?”  “Mom, can God do that?”

Mom: “Yes, He can, and we'll pray that He will.  Then the doctors and all of us will know God's healing power and see His creativity in action!  BUT whatever God chooses to do will be the best scenario possible.  And we will still know His healing power and know His creativity…”